Guaranteed Substance Free 24 hours a day 7 days a week or the next one's on us :P

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Things are...

2006-06-05T15:54:00.000-05:00

surprisingly well. I'm using myspace a lot more lately and neglecting this blog like I said i eventually would so allow me to redirect you here ----> http://www.myspace.com/punkybrixx
this is where you can find me until I get bored there. when that happens expect me back home. anyways hope everyone is well. xx

2006-04-05T00:37:00.000-05:00

random

2006-04-05T00:36:00.000-05:00

Heaven doesn't need its own Vanna White

2006-04-05T00:35:00.000-05:00

Heaven?

2006-04-05T00:33:00.000-05:00

Never been this tired

2006-02-16T23:43:00.000-05:00

Well all I've got left to move into my apartment is my mattress and bed and some clothes and I'll be pretty much set. We got most of it done the past two days and I'm running on empty it'd be nice to have a day to rest but I have to work tomorrow. Payoff= I'm off three days next week and I'm not losing any hours to get them. It's amazing. By then I should be totally moved in and getting things in order. I can't wait to paint. I can't believe this is happening. I've wanted to move out for awhile and now it's really happening. Oh in other news I'm not going to be able to afford a phone (besides my cell phone) or cable which means no T.V. or internet for a while. I'm not sure how I'm going to function. Only time will tell. Anyways have a great weekend, and be safe. XO

2006-02-16T00:49:00.000-05:00

The night the lights when out in Wal-Mart. I know this maynot excite you but walmarts lights are always on it's opened 24/7. It was amazing to see it dark. By far one of the most beautiful sights I've ever seen. Like a sleeping giant (thanks I stole that from you). I hope it happens again for longer than 20 minutes...XO

I saw him

2006-02-09T01:08:00.000-05:00

You say everything that no one says
I feel everything that you're afraid to feel
how I'll always want you How I'll always love you
I gotta crush ~mm

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you know the one I'm talking about. I saw him today. It's the strangest thing I woke up oneday and I was like I'm going to see my soul mate today and I saw him and now somedays I wake up and I can't explain this feeling but I see him. I call him my soulmate now. Not that I think he is or even believe in soulmates but it's just a thing. I'm like Beth there's my soulmate and she knows who he is now.
I don't know I've had a "crush" on this guy since I was 14 I guess maybe fifteen. I don't know him that well but from what I know he seems like a great guy. I dunno. I just feel so many things when I see him it's the strangest thing. Fear anger love admiration just so many things but I go all R-word when I see him and I'm sure he thinks I'm an idiot. Maybe not, he's too nice a guy for that.
Hmmm... He makes me smile that's the only thing I do know.
More details later I just wanted to say things are well the closing date has been moved up to the 16th and I'm so excited it's hard to sleep. I'm sure I'll post again before the night's over.
XO

Just a random poem by me

2006-02-03T03:11:00.000-05:00

She walks like she plays the piano
with pointless determination
each leg like each finger
jagged and precise
power and strength
behind every step
and nothing more
perfection and technicality
behind every note
and nothing more
no feeling no soul
just walking just playing
when did the soul fade to... blah
when did I forget how to play...

Feb. 20

2006-01-29T02:43:00.000-05:00

Our house is sold. We have to be out by the 20. Mom's already found a new house in black hole central.
I'm moving into carole's apartment and she's moving in with my mom. Holy shit I'm about to be living on my own for the first time. It's too big a deal for me to grasp. I've wanted to move out since I realized people could live by themselves. Weird I know but I like to be alone. No I love to be alone almost as much as I love to be with people. Does that make any sense? Probably not.
you know something else I just realized, I don't know where in the hell 2005 went. I don't know what happened in 2005. I hate not being able to remember shit that I lived. I have entire years where I have no clue what happened. I guess it was all the medications I was on. Hell I don't remember when I got off the meds. I guess it's been a year now maybe 2. Is it normal to have no clue what happened to you. Did I block out those years as some kind of a defense. So I wouldn't have to relive painful memories? Do people do that? What's wrong with me? Sigh... I just wish I could remember. I must have looked like a zombie 3 years ago... I feel like I just woke up. I've been sleeping since I was 14. 5 years of my life is a blur a dream I know I was alive because im alive now. im awake now and I'll be damned if I waste one more minute being depressed I'm so over that shit. My goal for 2006 is to make memories many many memories I have to make up for lost time. Ha! Party at my new apartment lets say the 21 or so stop by. XO

2006-01-29T02:05:00.000-05:00

new tat peoples yes it's real yah

I'm tattoed

2006-01-25T22:14:00.000-05:00

that's right ladies and gentlemen I got my very first tattoo yesterday a sparrow i drew myself and yes it's amazing and yes it felt amazing. it didn't hurt at all i mean not even a little. it was a weird feeling i can't describe but it wasn't unbearable and i really want another. so that's all that's going on and yeah i tell you other stuff laters.
I loves Lamarjorie Crawford even though she's a number one jerk ;)

Guess Who's back???

2006-01-09T21:10:00.000-05:00

Jaime yahsss. I just spent the day with her. I just wanted to say I <3 her so very much. Anyways I may have a new job at a vet's office yessah. Cause I hate my job so much. The only good thing about it is Beth and Anderson and that's pretty much it I'm so glad I met them they're the greatest. sure andy's alittle monotone and at times alittle strange but I love the kid. And Beth I've never met anyone like her she's all around awesome. Post are coming back have no fear. Wait... no one's really reading this right? I mean why would you? who's wants to hear a 20 year old talking about her life. Oh yeah I'm 20 now too btw turned twenty the 3rd. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I'm not a teenager any longer. I is a bonafide grown ups. WOH!!! Gotta GO Grim adventures of Billy and MAndy is on!!! byes <3 <3 <3 Everyone gets free kisses woh. XO Brixx

Good News everyone

2005-11-09T23:47:00.000-05:00

I'm moving out on my own!!! Within the month if all goes well. Bad news comes with this though I'm going to be paying rent and utilities by the skin of my teeth so... No more internet for awhile. I've been at my job long enough to change to full time but they're already working me outrageous hours as it is and I start back in school in January so I'm going to have to rough it for awhile. Good thing my addiction to the blog as passed I guess, otherwise I'd lose my mind. Anyways things are still going pretty good I must say. It's good to finally have a life again. :D
so mad parties at my apartment very soon. Unfortunately not on the weekends because I'm my jobs bitch. Sigh... Isn't it grand to be an adult. I wish I had of valued the security of not having to pay major bills when I had the chance. We all have to grow up sometimes. I think I may have to get a room mate to have anything. I don't care the sacrifices are worth it to be out on my own. Atleast I hope they are. Only time will tell.
I know it's been awhile but I'm not going to let this blog die I promise.
XO Brixx

2005-11-01T11:42:00.000-05:00

MEOW

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joe thinking he's God or something

2005-11-01T11:39:00.000-05:00

arg me mateys

Andrew and Joseph?

2005-10-11T13:42:00.000-05:00

hmmm... maybe there is some hope haha. boys are stupid!!! that's all I have to say about that. anyways everything's going great. I have nothing to complain about so that's good. anyways I hope everyone is doing super awesome just like me. XO Brixx

Life?

2005-09-28T13:26:00.000-05:00

So today I'm wondering why can't life be more like the movies? That would be nice... Hope everyone has a great day.

Andrew and Joseph

2005-09-26T10:36:00.000-05:00

Didn't work out. Andrew basically said he wasn't looking for a relationship since he just got out of one. He just wants sex and Joseph wants a relationship. So you know how that goes. Joseph's gotten over it surprisingly quick atleast now he knows for sure where they stand.
I'm still single as well though my stories a little more confusing so much so I'm not going to explain it. Why? Well... Cause it's my blog and I don't want to and that's the glory of having your own blog.
I'm still working for the cult. I still like it. Yes I said I like it. Now don't confuse this with love. I don't love my job. I like it. it could be a whole lot worse. Anyways nothing's going on. The next time I'm off again is wed. so I'll have a lot more to say then.
XO Brixx

Crush or Crushed?

2005-09-19T00:05:00.000-05:00

I haven't liked someone this much in so long. It feels strange but I have like a crush at 19 years old now. I thought those things went away once you got to be a certain age. I guess they don't. I've been working at my job now for a month. An entire freaking month and there's this guy. And I'm not trying to be mean but I thought he was gay at first. So I would you know flirt and cut up with him. Like I do Andrew (the gay guy I'm having an affair with)(he started the rumor don't ask) But now it's like I'm not even sure if he is gay. Maybe I was wrong. Cause he smiles and blushes everytime I talk to him (atleast that's what joseph says) he's just so awesome. He's seriously the sweetest guy. I don't know I really wish I knew for sure. And I'm not ballsey enough to ask him out. He seems old fashioned so I think that would be being too bold anyways. grr I want to scream out loud everytime I seem him it's like my heart jumps up in my throat. I mean I knew how to talk to him when I thought he was gay but now. *sigh* I really hope he's not gay. I mean I would be crushed not like for the rest of my like but atleast for a few weeks or months. I'm not sure. He's has the greatest smile too, it lights up a room. Ever since I've seen it I've felt like I can't go a day without seeing it. It just makes everything seem alright. I don't know I'm blabbering on like a freaking idiot. I'm going to bed. Love ya XO Brixx
P.S. I'm still trying to hook andrew and joseph up and I have to take joseph to atlanta on wed. my day off. mew, at 9 in the morning which means we have to leave at like 6. That blows. pray for me I need it. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

2005-09-17T12:01:00.001-05:00

yeah I got these as well.

2005-09-17T12:01:00.000-05:00

These are my new shoes. WOOO. I love making money.

2005-09-14T13:15:00.000-05:00

After much debating... I'm Going as Yura for Halloween!!! Yura is one of my favorite villans off of InuYasha who unfortunatily gets sacked after only two episodes. YURA LIVES!!!

Pay Day???

2005-09-10T00:12:00.000-05:00

Oh yes I got my first real check. I've decided I'm going to get my first tattoo as soon as I have another day off. Which will probably be on some lame day like a Monday. I don't think the tattoo parlor is even opened on Monday. I don't blame them who in their right mind goes and gets a tattoo on a Monday and if they do why. Do they wake up nice and refreshed from the weekend and say hey I think I'll skip work and go get a tattoo this morning. So yeah I'm going to get a tattoo Monday haha... It's not like a huge one. I've wanted a tattoo since I was 16 but I'm not obsessed with it enough to have like a billboard sized one. What am I getting you may ask or not since I'm really the only one who cares about my life which suits me fine. But if you are curious. I'm getting a tribal sparrow I designed on the outside of my wrist on the little bone, you know on the outside. He's not going to be too big. But why a sparrow you may ask or not once again. Because my grandfather has two on his chest and it's kind of in his honor because he's like my dad (since if you've been keeping up I don't have a relationship with my real dad) I respect him more than any man ever and I love him more than any other man in my life right now. I look up to him so much and I know he's not going to be around much longer so I want something I can have with me always and look at and think about him when he's gone. Atleast my tattoo will have some meaning behind it instead of something I got when I was drunk. I've been thinking about it for a while and I think it's the one. So I'll have pictures later.
Anyways work is still going good but they can't make me do the f-ing cheer they're not that great. It's bad enough I have to wear a uniform I'm not being excited and cheering about it. When they let me have my individuality back I'll have something to cheer about. Oh Yeah we get to dress up for Halloween. I'm so excited. Still torn between who I'm going to go as. Oh well I've got a while.
Hope everyone is well XO Brixx

2005-09-08T11:34:00.000-05:00

Have you seen this boy??? (er I think he's actually played by a girl here) but I'm still inpressed) I have some things that only alchemy can fix. If you see him send him my way.

Damned no matter what I do...

2005-09-07T12:28:00.000-05:00

I've decided not to go back to school this quarter. Why some of you may be asking. Well, I have several reasons. Number one we are the process of selling our house and relocating to a house about 40 minutes away, That's closer to town and my school. We have no help to move everything we own except me and my mom. Number two I just started a new job which is taking up a great deal of my time and I'm still not used to it. I just don't see how I can balance school and work at the same time on top of moving. I know I said should it ever come down to it and I had to decide between school and work that work would be the thing to go. But when we move the utilities and payments will be more and I'll be helping out so I can't afford to quit. I defiantly can't afford to fail a class either because I don't qualify for hope yet (because I was homeschooled) If I were to fail a class my gpa would drop. I'm only like a 3.2 or 3.4 now and that's after making a C I can't afford to screw up my gpa. Number three is I can't afford college period at this point. I've already got one $1,600 student loan out now. I don't want to have to take out another one when I can work the next 4 months and have enough saved to pay it myself. I should have gotten a job before now that's true but I didn't I take full responsibility for my actions. I'm screwed now because of it.
To me it's no big deal if I have to wait until January to start back at school. But to everyone else it's like I'm giving up. When I'm not. I'm going back to school and soon as things calm down and I have more stability. I'm going to start in January regardless of what anyone things and I am going to save my money. I just don't see why you don't trust me. I have every intention of going to school this quarter until I found out we were moving. I just don't want too many things on my shoulders. I really don't want to screw up in school. This is my only chance to be something and get out of this god forsaken town. I can't mess it up. I just can't.
So as a result. I now have no insurance from October to December. God forbid something happen because I would be totally screwed more so than now. I know believe me.
But please believe me when I say I'm going to save every penny I make for school and I'm going to start back in January. I know you don't trust me but there's really no reason not to. You should know college is something I really want otherwise I wouldn't have started and wasted the money on two quarters to begin with. I want to go to college. I don't want to end up like you or him. I want to be something and do something big with my life and if it's postponed a few months it's going to be okay. I promise. Please don't hate me this is not the end of the world or my time at college. I swear to God I'm not quitting. I know you've seen me give up before but you have to believe me when I say this is something I really truly whole heartedly want. I just want to do it the right way and not have to get anymore loans. I don't want to be in debt up to my ass when I graduate.
Thank you for all your help I know you can't afford to pay for my college but that's okay because you do so much more for me already more than any mother should. I know that without you I wouldn't be able to go to college at all. Please don't damn me and hate me because I'm taking a little more time off. I'm going back as God as my witness or you can throw me out in the street. I swear to you that should be enough for you to have a little faith in me. I hope oneday you will. I just wish you could see it from my point of view and be a little more supportive. I support everything you do and over the years I've never lost any faith or trust in you. I'm 19 years old now I'll be 20 in January you have to know I'm nearly an adult and I have to make decisions that I believe are in my best interest for my future. I've made mistakes in the past but you don't have to keep shoving them in my face every time I do something you don't agree with. I was a child then but I'm not anymore.
God, I just wish my past would stop haunting me. I'm never going to be able to live it down. I just feel like I'm going to be paying for the mistakes I've made the rest of my life until I get away from this town. I just want to go some where, where no one knows anything about me. I feel like I'm being punished for things I had no control over and it's partly because of you. Why can't you forgive me and let everything go. You always talk about letting things go and not holding them inside but you haven't let them go. If you only knew...

2005-09-06T22:16:00.000-05:00

Random Anime pose in 5...4...3...2...1!!! Hey it was supposed to be random how come you guys are all dressed up? Anyone else excited about Halloween a little early???

2005-09-06T18:45:00.000-05:00

Farewell Gilligan!!! Enjoy your final tour!!!

2005-09-06T17:40:00.000-05:00

This is the HOTTEST group of girls I've ever seen!!! ;)

2005-09-05T17:38:00.000-05:00

I'm not the only one with issues... I'm thinking either Ayame or Blue for Halloween...I'm so sad...but I'm not alone...Muwhahaha... we're everywhere!!! consplayers.com peeps.

2005-09-05T14:17:00.000-05:00

MOVIN ON UP!!!

AHHHHH!!!

2005-09-01T20:50:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the lack of post. Well sorry for no post really. I haven't died or done anything tragic like that but I have been busy. I'm trying to get in all the hours working I can because I know when school starts (next week WOH) I'm going to have to drastically cut them back. Which sucks because not only am I making sweet cash but I work with the most awesomest people anyone could ever hope to work with. Everyone of them are seriously great. I work at night usually somewhere around 3:00pm to 12:00am and that's when the cool crowd is at work. During the day not so much but second shift is the shit. I work with like 2 awesome gay guys a hott lesbian (I thought was a guy) a cool guy that started the same day I did. KIM. A super hott guy named Jarred (who also many possibly be gay) some other hott people and a bunch of married women mostly. I didn't know there were so many gay people in hicksville it's awesome cause now I know Josie isn't alone. I'm actually trying to hook him up with a guy I work with named Andrew. It started out rough but now I love it and actually enjoy going to work. I laugh the whole time I'm there. Either at people, or with people, or with people at people. The cult has turned out to be alright mostly. So, yeah, I was off today the first day since I started. I hung out with Joseph all day cause he's still out of work. Yeah, so things are going pretty good I'm making my own money which couldn't have happened at a better time with the way gas prices are.
$3.26 a gallon in MillyVille. There's been panic here for the past two days due to a gas shortage our governor swears we don't have. I guess he's got us on a technicality cause there really isn't a gas shortage we just have no way of getting gas. The guy at the station down the road from us (my cousin actually) told us he didn't expect any gas for atleast 2 weeks and that when they were out they were out. It's getting a bit ridiculous here. I mean with the people fighting and the lines and the mobs and all. I hope it all ends soon and to think I used to complain about the gas prices a year ago. I really had no clue. But what can you? I mean I'm about 35 minutes from my job so gas is killing me that's where all my money is going. I don't know what I'm going to do when school starts. I know now Sunday drives are a thing of the past I'm really going to miss.
I hope everyone is well especially those in Louisiana and Mississippi. My prayers and thoughts are with everyone. Be good Be safe.
Oh yeah and before I get off my box here I have one more thing to say. If you drive a HUMMER or any kind of tank type SUV you should be dragged out in the street and shot. You're the reason we're having to pay outrageous prices for gas and you're one of the reasons there are kids dying everyday in the WAR. If you have enough money to blow on those stupid ass cars, and you do, you clearly have more money than brains and the world would be better off without you. You people are MORONS that don't care about anything but your image and yourselves. I'm glad I'm not one of you because I would be ashamed to be seen in a Hummer. I bet if it was your daughter or your son over there you would sing a different tune.
Always XO Brixx
p.s. Bring on the hate post if you dare. Do I look like the type of person that gives a shit? No. No I don't. Thank you.

I know some of you maybe wondering...

2005-08-19T20:14:00.000-05:00

well atleast 2 people anyways maybe asking themselves. Why for the lack of updates on Brixx's blog? Now I must solemnly explain that I too have joined the 9 to 5 class. My unemployment stage has finally ended and now I'm a working girl or as I like to put it I've joined a cult. Happiness and freedom to sleep until noon if I darn well please no longer abides here no sir. But sweet hard earned cash will soon. I'm only making like 7 dollars an hour but I'm not going to complain because it's more than I was making sitting on my caboose all day. I think my self inflicted insomnia is cured because I find myself unable to keep my eyes opened past 11. Which sucks big time. I don't like mornings and I never NEVER will for a few good reasons I don't have to explain at this time but if you think of something that's probably one of my many excuses. I have to go in at 8am but that's only because I'm training. It's sad after two 8 hour days I'm seriously questioning my sanity and the sanity of others. I truly have joined one of the largest cults in the world. I've never seen more bizarre people and now I to and one of them. I have to go in at 8 all week and it's supposed to be part time. I think they're jeepin me for extra time here somehow. Anyways I get a sweet paycheck Thursday which I've already spent and must repay so... oh... and training sucks big time. BIG TIME. For many reasons I don't have to explain this is my blog use your imagination people. I'm so tired...Already...That's sad. Next week is going to separate the woman from the whinny b***hes (I'm not one of them...Thank God) pray for me I need it haha. Anyways I'm off for the weekend so I can sleep late... WOH... I don't have to see the sun rise for two days. Once I get on my normal time which will start and 3 in the afternoon and end around 12 midnight I'll be straight. Until then I'll grin and bare it. It's nice to vent thanks for your time. Much love to everyone and ya'll have a safe weekend kiddies... ~XO ~ Brixx
Oh to be 17 again. I had no idea how much I took it for granted. I appreciate my mom a hell of a lot more now for all she's done. I didn't know how amazing she was. It's been two days and I'm already ready to nut up. She's been at it 31 years. If that's not amazing I don't know what is.

I believe...

2005-08-14T16:25:00.000-05:00

So I've been going to church again. I had stopped going when I started school because I don't know if you've ever been a college student but it can be pretty time consuming and stressful. Anyways I'm out until September so I've been going to church.
I grew up in the church I mean since before I could walk I was in the church. So many of my first memories are of the church. It has always been a place I feel totally comfortable and safe. I know religion is not one of those things you should talk about but I love it. All religions all beliefs are beautiful in their own ways. I truly believe that all religions or beliefs are different translations of the same truth. Different paths to the same place. I don't judge any person or their beliefs but I think that people are much happier if they believe in something whatever it is. No, I've never seen God but I believe. I believe there has to be something out there bigger than any of us, bigger than we as humans can grasp. There just has to. Maybe I believe in God because I was raised in the church and it's the only thing I know but I can think of far worse things to believe in.
It's good to be back home it's good to feel peace even if it's only for 2 hours on Sundays. It's nice to feel like things are right in the world for that moment. It's nice to feel like you're surrounded by love, and at ease, even if it only last until service is over. It's enough to get me through until next Sunday.
Hope everyone's weekend was safe and well. XO

Hi all you non-commenting b**tards in cyber space!!!

2005-08-09T11:53:00.000-05:00

So here's the news in my town, well my life, brought to you by yours truly.
1. Joseph has the surgery on his shoulder he's doing great. The doctor said he will be out of work for a minimum of 4 months (GO him). But his workman's comp crap doesn't kick in until he's been out almost a month which blows, he doesn't really like that job anyways and I don't blame him. He doesn't get paid enough to do the work he does.
2.Clif is still home from Baghdad. He injured his knees very badly and he has to have 2 surgeries which is a blessing because he won't be going back anytime soon if ever. Which the family is thrilled about including me. Welcome home Clif I hope you're here to stay!!!
3. My Aunt Nana the one I talked about before that had cancer was back in the hospital with chest pains. She had open heart surgery when she was 41 and she's not a big woman or at all unheathy in that sense but she has been a smoker since she was like 14 and after the heart surgery she still continues to smoke. People tell her all the time to quit but it's not that easy she's 55 now and she's been smoking since she was a kid. I think it's safe to say she's addicted. Anyways she got transferred to Macon where they did a bunch of test and concluded that she would live and nows she's back home and the chest pains have subsided.
4.Tristan and Sarah (niece and nephew) went back to school this week. Tristan is in the 4th grade and This is Sarah's first year at school. She's going to do well because she's already bright and a social butterfly. Tristan already hates school. Tristan is my heart and soul I wish the kid were mine. He's very clever and very bright he just has A.D.D. and can't pay attention even though he's on medication he has a hard time listening. He's also anti-social which makes school seem like torture. I think he's the greatest kid in the world he just need some extra attention he got a good teacher this year from what I hear so I hope he starts to enjoy school.
5. My beautiful and super smart Nanny is going to be 72 and we're having a good old fashioned southern get down this weekend!!! She's the hottest 72 year old I've ever seen in my life and she's still mobile. (which is always good) It'll be good to get with all the cousins, aunts and uncles. 6.Got a big date on Wed. I'm just kidding there's a group of us going out, I haven't gone out in ages it'll be nice to hang with people my age for a change.
7. I found BRETand he's hott. When did he grow up? That's all I'm saying too bad he has a girlfriend :P I'll tell you guys some back story on him later.
Well that's all for now kids. Hope you enjoy the rest of your lovely week. I'll try to be better with the post even though no one really cares and I know that. I like having a blog even if I bore people to death it's my blog and everything on it is by me or about me. Which is awesome! Life is amazing even when it's as uneventful as mine. It'll change once I'm famous then I bet you b*tches will be dying for my next post. I'm just kidding! I know, I know, I need to lay off the drugs (which btw I'm not on) I'm just high on life today what can I say.
I love you guys! See ya soon! x0 <3>

Another quiz Q&A cause nothing is going on and no one cares to begin with!!!

2005-08-07T22:31:00.000-05:00

n f o r m a t I o n
1. Name: my real name? Or Nickname? I have several you decide. Glowworm, Ginger, Cherry pie(shannon's doing), Nickel(thanks Jaime),Britain, Punky, Calico, Britt, Bri, yummylicious copper locks (don't ask)Brixx(ah it's not my real name after all)
2. Single or taken:SINGLE!!!
3. Sex: (yes please I'm j/k) female
4. Birthday: January 3rd 1986
5.sign: Capricorn
6.siblings: 1 half brother 1 half sister 2 step sisters (I'm an only child)
7. Hair color: red this week
8. Eye color: green
9. Shoe size: um... 10?
10. Height: 5'11 (tall I know, now ask me if I care?)
11. Favorite foods: black olives, Mac and cheese (which is a veggie), mocha frappuccino, shepherd's pie.
12. Hometown: pick a small town in Georgia and there's a good chance that's probably it

r e l a t I o n s h I p s
1. Who are your best friends?: Jaime, Ashley, Joseph, Luke, Christy, Michael
2. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: not currently
3. How many people have you kissed?: a lady never tells
4. Are you shy around your crush?: sure, why not?
5. Do you indulge in random hook-ups?: deff not and never would
6. Still have feelings for anyone you've been in a past relationship with?: Thank God no.
7. Do you know what it feels like to be in love?: yes and no
8. Would you sacrifice your favorite possession for your best friends?: in less than a heartbeat

f a s h I o n s t u f f
1. Where is your favorite place to shop: favorite... Bath and body works... Yummy
2. Have any tattoos or piercings?: 2 holes in each ear
3. What is your favorite thing to wear?: clothes, I'm not trying to be a smart ass (this time) I love clothes.
4. What is a must have accessory?: earrings and a cute handbag
5. How much is the most you've ever spent on a single item of clothing?: I'm ashamed to say
6. Do you match your belt with your hair color?: can you say anal? Shoe maybe hair never
7. What are you wearing right now?: spaghetti tank, hello kitty panties and boxers
8. What is the worst trend you see today?: bling, bling, comes to mind people wear too much jewelry to just be in Walmart. Leave that at home honeys. Tight clothes with everything hanging out on big girls is another. Ladies have some self respect. The best trend in my opinion is the one you set yourself. Don't be a clone don't buy into what the media is selling you be true to yourself and wear wtf you want to wear.

s p e c I f I c s
1. Do you do drugs? Nope
2. What kind of shampoo do you use?: Dove
3. What are you most scared of?: God currently with Failure in a close 2nd
4. What are you listening to right now?: a CD I made. (fall out boy, Hawthorne heights, relient K, emo stuff like that) (yes, I <3>

h a v e y o u e v e r
1. Given someone a bath? Do babies and puppies count?
2. Bungee jumped?: not yet and to be honest I would much rather dive with sharks that would be sooo much fun.
3. Made yourself throw up?: what kind of question is that?
4. Skinny dipped?: yes
5. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yes many, many times
6. Cried when someone died?: of course
7. Fallen for your best friend?: maybe
8. Been rejected?: of course who hasn't
9. Rejected someone?: sadly sorry guys
10. Used someone?: never

c u r r e n t
1. Hair: you saw the pic you should know
2. Music: didn't we already ask this five seconds ago. EMO
3. Make-up: lavender eye shadow and lip gloss
4. Annoyance: this quiz
5. Scent: dove shampoo and lucky you lucky brand
6. Favorite musical artist: Jason Mraz
7. Favorite group: 3 doors down and third eye blind
8. Desktop picture: anime of the guy off s-cry-ed
9. Book you're reading: not telling
10. CD in player: The Killers, Nightwish in the car
11. DVD in player: Garden State
12. Color of toenails: clear coat (they were a saucy red about five minutes ago but I had to change them cause that doesn't go with everything and I like to half way match)

Add your two cents or don't I really don't care anymore. No one on here is nice. I know you are reading. I have a stat counter people. If you do post then you'll be redeemed in my eyes and I'll think you're the coolest ever. Kisses to everyone. XO

2005-08-07T15:33:00.000-05:00

I love having a web cam. Check all hail the queen for more.

2005-08-05T14:40:00.000-05:00

Pimp the ones you love continues with this sexy man. Who's my dream guy? I'll let you guess.Yummy. I would marry you in a heartbeat Mr.Mraz, as long as you sing me to sleep every night. XO

2005-08-04T14:39:00.000-05:00

Yet another hott lady I'm related to hottness must run the in family :P

2005-08-04T14:37:00.000-05:00

Who's that hott lady???

2005-08-03T15:31:00.000-05:00

10 Adorable Penguins For Sale!!! Perfect for any event they come with their own Tux!!!

Notice: DREAM FOR SALE

2005-08-02T20:18:00.000-05:00

1.Enormous Ranch: with all the fixins that anyone could enjoy. Including but not limited to; 7 bedrooms 4 baths, huge kitchen, stables, horses, a hot tub, a pool, 370 acres of wilderness, a lovely view of the lake, mountains in the background, the beach not far away, millions of stars, a few cowboys, and a pole (don't ask unless you know).
2.A corgi: male named Bodega also responds to Bordello.
3. 2 cats: 1 Siamese, 1 tom cat, males, named Carl and Lenny
4.A German Shepard: female named thunderclese
5.A sheepdog: male named Max
6.A blue Heeler: female named Blue oddly enough
7. An ill tempered llama
8. an alpaca
9. A Japanese garden complete with countless coy.
10. An oversized good for nothing Alligator.
11. Several lovely goats.
12. Several dream cars. Too many to name.
These can all be yours today for. . . Make them a deal honey. . . Absolutely Free!!! For a limited time if I don't get any responses I'll be forced to burn it to the ground.
Sound to good to be true. Too perfect. I didn't think so wish I had thought about it a little longer before I got my hopes up. The fairy tale has ended or rather is on hold until further notice. The owner has packed up and moved to an Island in a location you can only find if you've already been there (or stumble upon it). Please no lost visitors, no lost tourist and no members of a stranded 3 hour tour. The owner also wishes to be alone until further notice and will not be accepting your emails, phone calls, telegrams, messages in a bottle, messages by pigeon, or telepathy. She will contact you when she wishes and only when she wishes.
P.S. this doesn't mean the blog will be neglected stay tuned the best it yet to come.
current mood: better!!! current song: It's too late by Carole King

Johnny...

2005-08-02T11:25:00.000-05:00

I'm sorry... I'm insanely jealous of any girl that can be with you. I've just had you for five years and I'm terrified to loose you. It's happened before. You're my best friend. I can't imagine my life without you. Even if we are just friends. You've helped me more than you know already. I guess I'm addicted to you and your support. (which never ceases to amaze me) I love you more than I ever thought I could. Can we please get past this? Always, Glowworm

Sorry once again...

2005-07-29T15:35:00.000-05:00

For the lack of updates. This week has been pretty dull. On the note I have been able to get in a lot of writing on several of my stories. So that's always good. Anyways I'm glad the weekends finally here and I'm sure you are too.
A few last minute updates before I don't post for 2 days.
Joseph's surgery has been moved up to next Wed. I'm going with him and I will let ya'll know how he's doing. Please have him in your thoughts.
And the new Jason Mraz album is finally out it's awesome so you should most definitely check it out. MR. A-Z and if you are new to his music I encourage you once again to get the Tonight not Again Live Album you won't be disappointed. (unless you're a closed minded I only listen to music my circle of friends suggest and hate anything remotely happy and have pre-conceived notions about absolutely everything)(then you're probably not listening to me anyways and everything I've said doesn't matter in the first place)(I love you)(and Jason Mraz)(Is there anyway for us to co-exist?)(We've been doing it for years I guess so) ;)
Check out Jason Mraz's new CD Mr.A-Z and his new single "Wordplay" and if you have the opportunity to see him live do it. He's AWESOME!!!
Bye for now guys hope you have a super fabulous weekend. Be safe. XO

2005-07-27T23:16:00.000-05:00

Danny Elfman is a genius!!!

Could it be any more uneventful?

2005-07-26T20:04:00.000-05:00

No I think not. This town once again is driving me bonkers (not that I already wasn't) I guess I should be thankful that absolutely nothing ever happens here. It could be a lot worse. But if you ever wanted to know why I write stories (I write anything really) It's because it's that bad here. It's so boring here when it rains it's an event. I need a long vacation and some new scenery. I love Georgia don't get me wrong it will always be my home state and I'm sure as I venture off into the world oneday I will return. But for now I'd rather be someplace else. I'm sure others can relate. There are little black hole towns everywhere. Cheer up guys. There's an awesome place out there somewhere for us. One day will find it, until then nothing's going on.

I was born in 86 I was a kid in the 90s I have an excuse...

2005-07-24T22:20:00.000-05:00

How much do u remember the 90's?
(I'm already thinking this was a bad idea)
[x] Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
[x] Fraggle Rock (warm smiles)
[] G.I. Joe
[x] Are You Afraid of the Dark?
[x ]Secret World of Alex Mack
[x] Bug Juice
[x] Beetlejuice (adored)
[x] nightmare before christmas (one of my many favorite movies)
[ ] Welcome Freshman
[ ] space cases
[ ] round house
[x] The Muppet Show
[x] Muppet Babies
[x] Eureka's Castle
[x]Salute Your Shorts
[ ] legends of the hidden temple
[ ] You Can't Do That On Television
[ ] G.U.T.S. DO U HAVE GUTS?
[ ] What Would You Do?
[x] Double Dare
[x] Rocko's Modern Life (awh heifer)
[x] All That[x] Ren and Stimpy
[x] Clarissa Explains It All
[ ] The Torklesons
[ ] The Adventures of Pete and Pete
[x] Stick Stickley Write to me, Stick Stickley, PO Box 963, NYC, NY State, 10108
[x] Goodburger
[x] Angry Beavers
[x] Hey Arnold!
[x] AHH! Real Monsters (loved it help me)
[x] Tiny Toons
[x] Animaniacs
[x] Pinky and the Brain
[x] Freakazoid
[ ] Earthworm Jim
[x] the babysitter's club
[ ] Underdog
[x] Kablam!
[x] Gullah Gullah Island
[ ] Richard Scarry
[x] Dumbo's Circus
[ ] Ocean Girl
[x] Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
[ ] Snick Snacks
[ ] Dunkaroos
[x] SNICK- Saturday Night Nick
[ ] Koala Yummies
[x]Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?
[x] Nickelodeon Magazine
[x] Ernest movies
[ ] Radio Flyer
[ ] Disney Watchers
[x] Adventures in Wonderland (loved)
[x] Homeward Bound
[ ] The Adventures of Yellow dog
[x] Milo and Otis (I need help)
[x] Neverending Story
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit? (one of my all time favorite movies)
[x] The Lion King
[x] Labyrinth
[x] 101 Dalmations
[x] the secret garden (loved)
[x] Pete's Dragon (loved)
[x] Hocus Pocus (still one of my favorite movies)
[ ] Secret of Roan Inish
[x] Land Before Time (loved)
[x] Dinosaurs[x]
Fern Gully (loved)
[x] Secret of NIMH (loved)
[x] Gummi Bears (loved)
[x] Care Bears (loved, okay still love)
[x] my little pony (still love, no I don't have my little pony sheets)
[x] Black Beauty (loved)
[x] Rainbow Brite
[ ] Lady Lovely Locks
[x] Candyland
[x] Sorry!
[x] Trouble
[x] Don't Wake Daddy
[x] Mousetrap
[x] Jenga
[x] Don't Break the Ice
[x] Hungry Hungry Hippos
[x] Pretty Pretty Princess
[ ] Tinker toys
[x] Cooties
[ ] The castles that made tea sets
[x] Polly Pocke
t[ ] Mighty Max
[ ] Hypercolor T-Shirts
[x] Lite Brite (still love)
[ ] Sky Dancers
[x] Ribbon Dancer
[x] Scrunchies
[x] side ponytails
[x] Stirrup Pants
[x] Jellies (had a million pairs in several colors with glitter oh my)
[ ] Saddle Shoes[x] Barbies
[x] Beanie Babies
[x] Tamagotchies
[x] Yo-Yos
[ ] Duncans
[ ] Choose Your Own Adventure
[ ] Pogs
[x] Goosebumps
[x] Magic Attic Club
[x] American Girl
[ ] Island of the Blue Dolphins
[x] Saved By The Bell (I'm still waiting Mr. Morris)
[x] Full House (oh yeah uncle jesse)
[x] Step By Step
[x] TGIF on ABC
[x] Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
[x] Boy Meets World
[x] Clueless (as if, I want to be 5'10 like Cindy Crawford?)
[x] Simpsons
[x] Flipper
[x] Growing Pains
[x] Family Ties
[x] Titanic (yes I was in love with Leo)
[x] Felix The cat: The Movie (loved)
[x] Jonathan Taylor Thomas (see above)(dare I say my first crush)
[x] Home Improvement
[x]Tom and Huck
[ ] My Brother and Me
[x] Keenan and Kel
[x] Hanson
[x] Inspector Gadget
[x] Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
[x] Power Rangers (love)(yes love no mistake)
[x] Hot Wheels
[x] Creepy Crawlers
[x] Easy Bake Oven
[x] cha cha chia Flower Making Kits/Chia pets
[x] Wild and Crazy Kids
[x] Playdough McDonald's Sets
[x] Animorphs
[x] Rainbow Fish
[x] If You Give A Mouse A Cookie (you'll never get rid of him?)
[ ] Bailey School Kids
[ ] Wayside School
[ ] Cam Jansen
[ ] Ramona Quimby(age8)
[ ] Amber Brown
[x] Allegra's Window
[ ] 3-2-1 Contact
[x]baby ginger sporty scary and posh
[x] The brave little toaster (love)
[x] Bananas In Pajamas
[x] One Saturday Morning on ABC (its actually still on...)
[x] Transformers
[x] Transformers Beast Wars
[x]Waynes World[ ] The dancing baby
[x] Nancy Drew novels
[x] catdog (loved)
[ ] shamomo the cat
[x]captain planet
[x] hi there, FACE here!
[x] Doug
[ ] The Biker Mice From Mars
[x] Furbies
[x] Giga pets
[ ] Sam and Max
[x] You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"
[x] You watched the Pound Puppies.
[x] You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air."
[x] You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish
[x] You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own.[x] You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
[x] You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom
[ ] Two words: M.C. Hammer
[x] If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
[x] You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
[x] You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."
[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.[x] You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
[ ] You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
[ ]You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
[x] You played the game "MASH"(yeah so far nope it didn't end up that way)
[ ] You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it
[ ] L.A. Gear.
[x] You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten. (still do I think I have a problem)
[ ] You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
[x] You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."
[x]You wanted to be a Goonie. Truffle Shuffle! Boodie Trap!
[x] You ever wore flourescent clothing.
[x] You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
[x] You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
[x] You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.(awwh I wish I still had my thermos)
[x] You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
[x] You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.
[ ] You remember Hypercolor T-shirts.
[x] Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
[x] You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
[x] You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
[x] You owned a pair of jelly sandals.
[x] After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
[x] You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
[x]You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
[ ] You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide. (slip 'n' bleed)
[x] You have ever played with a Skip-It.
[x] You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
[x]You've gone through this list occasionally saying "totally awesome."
[ ] You remember Popples.
[x] "Don't worry, be happy."
[x] You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights.
[x] You wore socks scrunched down.
[x] "Miss MARY MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BACK" "With silver BUTTONS, BUTTONS, BUTTONS all down her BACK, BACK, BACK!"--she asked her mother,mothe,mother,for fifty cents.cents,cents --haha
[x] You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
[x] You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
[x]You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
[x] You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little ponies.
[x]You thought Doogie Howser was hot. (will i ever live this down)
[x] You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac
.[x] You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
[x] You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell" (I'm going to hell I know I need help jk!)
[ ] You know all the words to Bon Jovi.
[ ]You played and or collected "Pogs"
[x]You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger (once again I was a kid in the 90's everthing has a logical explanation)(Pink Ranger of course)(Kimberly)(taradactle)
the 21st century sucked! we need to rock it old school in the 90's again!!!
*Those were the days... sigh... What the hell am I talking about I can freaking drive now and I have waaaaay better style. A few questions though Where's Family Matters and David and the gnomes? Rock on kids of the 90s born in the 80's of course)* Let's 86 this! (I stole this from someone feel free to do with it as you please.) XO~ Jem (that would soo rock ha jk)

2005-07-23T17:20:00.000-05:00

If I were an Inuyasha character I would be Ayame!!! Sassy and Sweet (sometimes) and above all just as good as the boys (if not better). Kagome watch your back cause you've got nothing on me. ;) XO

Why doesn't anyone post anymore?

2005-07-23T14:57:00.000-05:00

I know I'm clearly boring the hell outta you people but you're on like atleast 30 seconds and that's 30 seconds in which you can tell me how to better my site. LOL! I comment on every site I go to. I'm doing my part haha.
Yeah, so, anyways, I'm in a super, good, mood today, despite it being 105, yes 105, outside. That's in the shade ladies and gentlemen. Will it ever end? I don't know how much longer I can take the south. You think after 19 years someone would be used to it but, I'm not. blah. It wouldn't be so bad if there was something to do around here but there's not. There's a very small "nightlife" (and I use the term lightly) and no day life. Unless you consider Walmart FUN (I don't). If I lived at the lake I guess it would be better. Though I'd be sunburned all the time instead of the porcelain (I've never seen the sun) white I am pimping now. I don't tan we've been through this. It doesn't matter how hard I try, or will myself to be tan, it just doesn't happen. And frankly, I don't care. I have no problem being white. If I wanted to look like an orange during the summer I'd slap on some sunless tanning crap. Like OMG does it look natural does it look real? No, sadly no it doesn't. Stop kidding yourself. I'm a redhead I'm clearly not meant to be orange and neither are you ladies. You're the color God(who works for me but you know whoever you believe in is fine as well) made you. Stop trying to cover it up unnaturally :P
So Clif is home for two weeks and I'm hoping to get to go see him when he goes to visit his parents in Rome next weekend. I haven't talked to him since his sister got married and I just want to hug him and tell him I love him. You know just in case. He's a good guy better than me I don't think I could go "over there"(as they say) willingly. Some people are meant to be heroes some people aren't I would much rather be a hero here than there anyday.
Anyways I hope everyone is enjoying their weekends and for God's sake someone comment even if it's a friendly Hello, I feel your pain, or FU, whatever, some form of intelligence.(now I'm just assuming there is some because, you know how to use a computer, and may be able to read)(the small words atleast, which is what I prefer, that means like, to use) See ya'll soon! XO

Not much going on

2005-07-20T19:40:00.000-05:00

Nothing going on really. I'm ready for the humidity to be over with and for fall to return. Along with college. I'm ready to be back in school thinking about taking some art classes this quarter since I never really have. I don't know if I should. I want to. I don't know. Anyways...
We're going to see my future mother in law Saturday. Can't wait. Other than that nothing really to report except that it's been thundering, lighting and raining every afternoon so much so that I'm willing to bet it will rain tomorrow. I'm ready for hurricane season to be over and I welcome dryer days.
I hope everyone is safe and well. XO

2005-07-18T19:54:00.000-05:00

http://punkybritt.blogspot.com/

2005-07-18T19:32:00.000-05:00

By the Way this is my baby. Wickette the magnificent!!!

Check out my Art...

2005-07-18T19:27:00.000-05:00

Yes I now have Art on the all hail the queen of self inflicted drama website. My art, I know some of them aren't like super amazing but they are mine and I love them so check them out. http://punkybritt.blogspot.com/ WOOOO. ~XO~

I apologize...

2005-07-15T13:58:00.000-05:00

for the lack of posting the past couple of days. I've been on the busy side.(I'm lying I have no excuse) Then again it's not like any of you are hanging on my every word. Good thing too I hate to disappoint people.
I just got back from taking Joseph to Atlanta. He has to have surgery on his shoulder in August. It sucks cause he's only 20 and already he has seriously injured himself at his job. A job he's only been working at since January. He's says he's going to quit after the surgery. He obviously can't now because the insurance is too good. He wants to go back to school or rather go to college which is good. That's where he needs to be, I'm not trying to down manual labor I mean someone has to do it but, I want better for him. He only started working there because people were telling him not to, and he hates to be told what to do. Which is a shitty reason I know but he's hard headed just like his dad.
The trip too Atlanta despite being stressful was freaking sweet. I love it so much. I drove over 100 miles per hour. GO ME!!! first time ever in my new car. I was going with traffic so you know it's all good, besides there was a cop right behind me when I was going 80 and he passed me so. I love it love, love, love. It's so refreshing. I don't know so stressed out that it's soothing comes to mind. It's just hard to imagine that all these people can live in this one large city with these massive buildings. I'm mean we have nothing like even close to that here. They all operate so smoothly to be so congested. I mean they just flow. The culture and many, many different people there just blows my mind. Yeah, I know, I'm a country girl and I don't get out of my small hometown much. Joseph and I stand out there because we're both so star struck and locals are like 'what's the hold up?' They don't appreciate it because they see it everyday, and they have more important things to do than stair at a huge building they see everyday. <(OR FISH!!!)< I think it's spectacular. I encourage you if you've never been there go at some point in your life. I don't think you'll be disappointed. It has something for everyone.
Anyways I probably won't post again until Sunday if anyone actually reads this besides my family. I love all you guys. Have an awesome, safe weekend and be good, or be good at what you're doing ;) See ya soon ~XO
I <3 Atlanta!!! I was the tall, beautiful, redhead dressed in light blue. I hope to visit again soon when I can relax and enjoy you. I <3 ATL!!!

2005-07-11T18:27:00.000-05:00

I couldn't have said it better myself. Thank you www.freewayblogger.com for spreading the truth.

Memory Lane...

2005-07-11T15:36:00.000-05:00

Yeah I was looking on my computer and found several letters from like five years ago. Letters from Jaime, Joseph and Shannon. The people that meant the most to me then. I couldn't help but get emotional because we are not as close as we once were. Joseph I see because he's my cousin. (but would we be friends if we weren't related, I would hope so) Shannon comes around when she wants something but never stays long enough to ask if you need help. And Jaime, Jaime the person who swore we would be friends threw thick and thin good times and bad, I haven't talked to in about a year. What happened to us? Why'd we all grow apart? Why do people you love with all your heart have to grow apart? I mean I know we all have our own lives but if we truly loved each other we should make time for each other right? I'm not saying it's their fault it's mine too. I could make myself more available to them, but Shannon and Jaime especially are busy with their own lives. Jaime's married with two kids one I haven't even seen and Shannon is divorced with two kids of her own. We've been through so much Jaime and I have known each other since we were born, we've gone to hell and back together (which I won't get into now) I just don't get it... Sigh... Whoever said Friends Forever clearly didn't warn me about the fine print.
I also found a picture of someone else I haven't talked to in 3 years. Someone who was very important to me at one time. Someone I might have loved once. Yeah I may lie and say I don't think about you but the truth is I do from time to time. I have a way of self sabotaging myself and you're the living proof. Guess we'll never know... Anything... Really. And I've moved on. I still wish you all the best and all the love in the world if you're out there. I'm sorry for everything and I'm officially telling you I have let you go if we even were. Merry May has moved on.
You can fall from Heaven
You can fall from a tree
but the best way to fall
is in Love with me
You know who you are. Thank you for everything. It is with a grateful heart I say Goodbye...
Anyways everyone else out there have a good one and I hope you are enjoying life. See ya soon! XO

5 things...

2005-07-10T19:22:00.000-05:00

5 snacks I enjoy: black olives, mushrooms, chex mix (the cheese kind), dill pickle chips, and banana popsicles

5 songs I know all the words to: Echo by Trapt, Sleeping to dream about you by Jason Mraz, Nemo by Nightwish, Iris by Goo Goo Dolls and anything by Third Eye Blind. I know the words to so many songs it's hard to narrow it down to five. I want to know the words to 1 million songs before I die. It's on my 2 do list.

5 reality television shows I watch: American Idol, The Real World, Fear Factor, Next(is that a reality show?) and Starting Over, yeah... um... That's more than anyone should watch.

5 television shows I watch daily: daily...hmm... Family Guy, InuYasha, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy, and Ghost in the Shell.

5 things I would do with 100 million:
1.Start my own Animation studio
2. Start my own Record Label
3. Open a completely Animation College that doesn't cost an arm and a leg to attend.
4. Give all my family enough money to live comfortably the rest of their lives.
5. Buy 400 acres somewhere no one could find me. (and my 15 dawgs hahaha, and my one cat seriously... I only want 5 dogs... we've gone through this.)

5 locations I would love to run away to: New Zealand, Ireland, Japan, Italy, France, Egypt, and Alaska. I know that's more than five what can I say there's lots of great places I've never been.

5 people I would run away with: Orlando, Travis, Jason, Chris, Adam and maybe he that will remain nameless (you know who you are and that was MAYBE, currently)

5 things I like doing the most...Singing, Drawing, Writing, Reading, Dancing

5 things I would never wear...A thong(I prefer chappy panties thank you), anything leather, spandex (eww, it should be outlawed show me one person that looks good in it),6 inch heels (I'm tall enough), and a bikini in winter ha!!! (or ever! I prefer to leave it to the imagination and tankinis thanks, not like we have a beach here anyways)

5 recently seen movies I like...Garden State, House of Flying Daggers, All of the extended Lord of the Rings movies, Lost in Translation, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

5 famous people I'd like to meet: Orlando Bloom, Jason Mraz, Johnny Depp, Mandy Moore (I know sad but she was like one of my idols when I was a kid), and Zach Braff

5 biggest joys of the moment....Being alive, being home, the ability to talk to many of my loved ones at any given moment of the day, breathing and being able to sing outloud anytime I want.

5 bad habits: I'm very sarcastic, I chew gum (and pens when I don't have any available), I pop my knuckles excessively, I have random thoughts and say them outloud before I think about them, and I bite my nails (not a lot just sometimes)

5 favorite toys: my laptop, my car, my CD player and microphone, my DVD player, and boys lots and lots of boys muwhahaha ha!!! I'm kidding I can't think of a number five.

I have been...

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running on empty now for two days. I am sooo tired. It rained non-stop all day today. ALL DAY now normally I like rain but it was a bit much. So the affair at the lake is finally over and now I can relax. Three days in a row of constant outside time is fun but I am glad to be back home. I also have a nice tan now no that was I lie I don't tan I burn. I have a lovely red glow now :P What do I expect with no sunscreen and being a red head. I thought for once I might get a little tan but alas it's not to be. We went fishing last night it was awesome the lake at night is even better than the lake during the day. There was a bunch of people shooting fireworks I guess they didn't get the memo when it actually was July 4th. So it's better late than never. And I was just saying very recently we should shoot fireworks every weekend I guess they did get that memo. :P
Clif parents are down from Rome, GA they were supposed to go to FL but with the weather being what it is they stopped in Milledgeville. Clif has been moved to a new "fort" where they don't have as many computers and ways to get in touch with their families so they haven't heard from him in a week. You could tell his mom was a nervous wreck. I really can't blame her I would be too. All the family was forced to stay indoors because of the rain so we had some bonding time which is always (almost always) good. With the way things are going these days I value anytime I have with my family. I realize now more than I ever have that there may be a day when I'm not able to see them. I think we're closer than ever.
That being said Joseph and I have once again decided we're are leaving milledgeville a.s.a.p. I love milledgeville don't get me wrong but it's like a black hole. You get trapped here even people who leave eventually get sucked back. I hate it here so much. It's a beautiful historic little town and I'm sure it's very pleasant to visit and tour. But I was born and raised here and I'm ready to leave. I have no clue where we're going but we're leaving soon. I mean of course I'll come back I have to several members of my family live here, and it might actually be nice to visit then. I just want to get away from this town where everyone knows everyone else's business. That's all this town is, it's a gossip town no one ever has anything nice to say about anyone. I want to go somewhere where no one gives a shit about you or your business (in a good way). I mean come on is my business so important that you have to talk about me or others? Whatever. Does your world revolve around me? No I didn't think so. I'm not like that I don't like to focus in on negative things and look for the bad in people. I'm not the kind of person who puts other people down like that. I don't care who's sleeping with who, who ran off, who's gay, who got a divorce. Come on people you can get that kind of shit on jerry Springer. Get a life. It makes me sick the way people treat other people hear. We're all humans. We all make mistakes why make people pay for it their whole life? Wonder why I'm not fond of many people especially here? There's your hint. People here are shallow and superficial and cruel and I'm glad I'm not one of them anymore cause there's more important shit to worry about. Look at the world outside your little comfort zone. Look around you, no one cares about you or your negativity. No one even knows your name outside of this town. Once again Get a Life.
Yeah so, wow just got on my soap box, It's mostly because of my cousin Joseph. Some people here treat him like shit and I can't stand it. This town is sooo backwards. So set in their ways. I hate it. I hate it a lot especially for him. This town has a lot of growing up to do and they need to do it soon. So while milledgeville looks appealing in it's beautiful dressed up charming southern side it also has a cruel side reserved for the locals.
Hope you visit soon and if you already have come back and see us ya hear!!!

Want to know why I'm not a morning person...

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because bad, bad things happen in the morning.

THE FREAKIN AWESOME LAKE!!!(insert woo)

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Yeah we went back to the lake today WOO (heather, Joseph and I) I love it love love love. We spent the entire day there. (not the entire, if you know me you'd know that was a lie I'm not a morning person) It was a blast. We got there and there are these nice steps into the ladder wich are good to use but get slippery (they're kinda under water) before I had a chance to warn heather she had fallen in. It was the funniest thing I have ever seen. As she was getting up I was like hey ugh watch that last step it gets kinda mucky and slippery. The look on her face was so funny. I was like I'll be quicker with that info next time. So Joseph came out there and they rode the jet ski Heather got thrown off like 20 million times. Some people just aren't meant to be lake people.
So like after 5 hours of non-stop-lake action we were tired. (I'm only half awake right now actually) We ate like this huge meal with Mike, Anni, and some next door neighbors then went towards home.
Where heather tells a story of how this past weekend she was in her mothers bed with a guy and called the wrong name. My jaw hit the floor. I mean I knew she was sleeping around she has been since she was 12 but I was shocked to hear it cause she's younger than me. So then Joseph goes into how he's had some great memories at the lake (wink wink nudge nudge) and I'm like God am I the only virgin that's a normal person left in Milledgeville??? Heather (who isn't even legal) says she's only slept with like 7 guys and Joseph's only "fooled around" with 2. But still I don't know I feel weird when they go into conversations like that cause I'm basically clueless. And they say "yeah that's right she's a virgin" like it's a bad thing. Can I help it if I can't just sleep with random guys? I want to be completely in love with my first guy and I want him to completely love me. Is there something so wrong with that? I mean I don't hate on them and talk down on them because they're not virgins, it honestly doesn't matter to me. Heather did say she regretted her first time (but not the others) I don't want to regret my first time. I've heard many of my friends say they regretted their first times. I'm not going to be like that. First off I don't regret 2nd I don't care what others around me say it's my body I'm waiting until I am damn good and ready to do something as big as that. I don't care that I'm a virgin I'm proud of it thank you very much. I'm only 19, right now at this moment I have all the time in the world.
Everyone have a great Friday and a safe awesome weekend. XO

I finally found a song...

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that describes me and here it is ladies and gentlemen:

We all know the girls that I am talking about
Well they are time bombs and they are ticking
And the only question’s when they’ll blow up
And they’ll blow up; we know that without a doubt
Cause they’re those girls,
yeah you know those girls that let their emotions
get the best of them
And I’ve contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
Let’s get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
So we’ll be tipped off to when they’re ticked off
Cause we’ll know just what they’re thinking
Cause what they’re thinking...She’s so pretty but she but doesn’t always act that way
Her mood’s out swinging on the swing set almost every day
She said to me that she’s so happy it’s depressing
And all I said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"
If it’s drama you want then look no further
They’re like the real world meets boy meets world meets days of our lives
And it just kills me how they get away with murder
They’ll anger you then bat their eyes; those pretty eyes that watch you
sympathize
And I’ve contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
Let’s get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
So we’ll be tipped off to when they’re ticked off
Cause we’ll know just what they’re thinking
Cause what they’re thinking...She’s so pretty but she but doesn’t always act that way
Her mood’s out swinging on the swing set almost every day
She said to me that she’s so stressed out that it’s soothing
And all I said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"
Cause when it’s black (it) means watch your back because you’re probably
The last person in the world right now she wants to see
And when it’s blue it means that you should call her up immediately
And ask her out because she’ll most likely agree
And when it’s green it simply means that she is really stressed
And when it’s clear it means she’s completely emotionless (and that’s all right I must confess)We all know the girls that I am talking about
She liked you wednesday but now it’s friday and she has to wash her hair
And it just figures that we’ll never figure them out
First she’s jekyll and then she’s hyde....at least she makes a lovely pair
Mood ring oh mood ring
Oh tell me will you bring
The key to unlock this mystery
Of girls and their emotions
Play it back in slow motion
So I may understand the complex infrastructure known as the female mind
[speaking:]Heh...that’s terrible
"Mood Rings" by Relient K

Terrible but true. I know that's not exactly praising myself but atleast I'm honest and I do come with a warning label. I wear a mood ring :P

So, I've talked about Clif on...

2005-07-05T16:51:00.000-05:00

this blog actually. Yesterday we went and got him lots of stuff to send him. (If you didn't read the other post, he's my cousin, he's in the middle east, the factory they were living in burned down and he and countless others are currently homeless) I was complaining about the heat yesterday when I realized who the hell am I to complain if I get too hot I can go to the comfort of my home and chill. Clif doesn't have that option. I don't care if it gets to be 110 here I'm not complaining about it anymore.
Clif lost everything he had so we're buying him the basics. It just makes me physically ill to know that he and countless others are over there homeless. I can't believe how long this BS has gone on. I'm so tired of hearing about it and thinking about it. I know I'm not the only one who is sick of this.
Before he left the family went up there to send him off and he had his dogtags on his left boot. When asked why he said sometimes that's all they find and he wants to be identified should something happen. He wants to come home. It doesn't get any more real than that. Yeah people die everyday I understand that but for Gods sake at least let them die in their homeland near their families. I would rather him die in a car accident here than fighting for something so pointless. I just don't get it. I know his mom, dad, sister and wife are dying everyday he's over there. Not to mention his sons. I know I'm not the only one out there who totally hates this feeling.
There's just no hallmark card that says "hey I'm sorry your in the middle east". I wonder why. There's just no words to express how our family and countless other families feel right now.
I just pray he knows how much we love him. I want him home so bad not for me but for his wife, kids, father and especially his mother. If something happened to him I don't know what we'd do. I just want to know he's safe again. Sigh... This sucks...

What is it about...

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Fireworks that makes you feel like a kid? I got to see fireworks like three days in a row. You could see a million and you're still like oooh aaah. We went back to the lake last night. On our way there I almost killed us. We were driving over one of the many bridges over the lake and to my surprise I see beautiful purple and yellow and I instantly go into little kid mode. Taking my eyes off the road and looking towards the sky. Laughing and clapping then I realize I'm driving just in time to not kill us. So we make it to the lake and like 4 or 5 neighbors were shooting off fireworks so we had the best view. Two little boys were shooting them off (with an adult) and you could hear them yell "he lit it run" it was the cutest thing. It was nice to be able to forget everything and feel like a kid even if it was only for an hour.
I wish they could shoot off fireworks like every Saturday but, for some reason fireworks are illegal in Georgia. This is a law I really don't get. Because there were ass loads of people shooting them off. I guess they figure they can't arrest them all. I know the people across the lake from us had to have spent hundreds of dollars on the fireworks. And it's funny to me that they had to "smuggle" them in and are basically criminals because of a stupid law.
I wish I could feel the way I feel when I see fireworks everyday of my life. I mean I'm only 19 but sometimes I feel so old. I think I have an old soul because I hang out with people who are atleast 5 years older than me or more. I am always the youngest in every crowd I hang out with. I was the same way when I was a kid. I don't know why I just get along better with an older
crowd. Sometimes I really want to let go and be a teenager I mean it is my last year being one. I can't believe I'll be 20 in January. It's so strange to think of myself as being 20. I hate this feeling of being stuck in the middle of wanting to be a kid and wanting to be an adult. I hope it passes soon.
Well I'm rambling. I hope everyone enjoyed there holiday and got to feel like a kid for a while. Welcome back to the real life...

We went to the...

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lake last night. It's awesome. I don't know what it is but I feel like a different person around water. I love it. We stayed at my uncle's house cause he's away in good ole Kentucky. His house other than being sparsely decorated is awesome. I hope I can have a house much like it oneday. It originally was one story and has a huge kitchen and 3 enormous bedrooms then he added a three car garage and an upper story which is like a whole nother house. I mean our house could easily fit in his two times over. It's got lots of windows so the light is phenomenal. You instantly go into vacation mode when you walk threw the doors. So I'm going back Sunday cause they always do something huge for the forth.
I finally suckered someone else into watching garden state so go me one more turned over to my side. Once again if you haven't seen it see it.
I also finally saw white noise and I was semi impressed I must say I don't know whether it's because I believe in that stuff or that I really like Michael keaton. But it's the closest I've come to being scared in a very long time. It was only a little though. I guess because I was alone and it was dark. I love horror movies, and I don't get scared easily but there's a certain time at night when your mind starts playing tricks on you, and I'm always up at that time. I guess it's mr.gregory making his presence known or my overactive imagination.
Happy 4th everyone be safe! XO

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Anytime it rains when it's 103 outside it's cool with me. Hope everyone's enjoying the summer :P
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More things to fill up space

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[x] I am a college student.
[x] I am a cuddler. (sometimes)
[x] I am an okay dancer.(super okay)
[] I am a morning person.
[x] I am a perfectionist. (slightly)
[] I am a Republican.
[] I am allergic to something deadly.(does poison count)
[x] I am an only child. (kinda, I have a half brother a half sister and 2 step sisters)
[] I am Catholic.
[x] I am content as of this moment.
[x] I am currently in my pajamas.
[] I am currently pregnant.
[x] I am currently single.
[] I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
[] I am currently suffering from a breaking heart.
[x] I am okay at styling other people's hair.
[1/2] I am left handed. (I can write with both hands actually, I'm better with my right)
[] I am married.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I am procrastinating by filling out this list.
[x] I am resentful that I have to grow up.(sometimes)
[x] I am very shy around the opposite sex.(sometimes)
[] I am, or was, pigeon-toed.
[x] I bite my nails.(sometimes)
[x] I can be paranoid at times.
[] I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
[] I collect picture frames.(what? Just the frames no pictures that seems lonely)
[x] I currently have a crush on someone.
[] I consider myself to be a 'nerd'.
[] I currently regret something that I have done/am doing.
[x] I curse frequently. (depends, really)
[x] I do not believe people are inherently good or evil.
[] I don't hate anyone.
[] I enjoy country music.
[x] I enjoy ...Jazz music.
[x] I enjoy smoothies.
[x] I enjoy talking on the phone.
[x] I have a ...Car.
[] I have a mobile phone.
[] I have a hard time paying attention at school.
[x] I have a hidden talent.(don't ask, it says hidden)
[x] I have a hobby.
[x] I have a lot to learn.(and always will)
[x] I have a pet.(a Pomeranian, and 2 cats)
[x] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.(don't ask it says secret)
[x] I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy.
[] I have all my (real) grandparents, none of them have died.
[x] I have at least one brother and/or sister.(I already explained)
[] I have been in a threesome.
[x] I have been rejected by someone.
[] I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship.
[] I have been to another country.
[] I have been to an anime convention.(yeah I like anime but that's a little much, not saying I never will though :P)
[] I have been to Europe.
[] I have been to Las Vegas.
[x] I have been told that I am very smart.
[x]I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
[] I have broken a bone.
[x] I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
[x] I have changed a diaper.
[x] I have changed a lot over the past year.
[x] I have counted down the days until the summer.
[x] it was complicated.
[] I have dated my best friend's ex.
[x] I have done something illegal.(depends on what you mean by illegal)
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have gone scuba diving/snorkeling.
[x] I have had major/minor surgery.
[] I have had my hair cut within the last week.
[] I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
[x] I have had the cops called on me. (If you don't already know don't ask)
[] I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
[x] I have mood swings.(on my Raven/Mandy days)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x]I have rejected someone before.
[x] I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.(many, many times, I'm addicted)
[x] I have seen the television show The O.C.
[x] I have swam in the ocean.
[] I have tried a drug that is illegal.
[x] I have tried sushi.
[x] I have watched Sex and the City.(slightly overrated in my opinion, Dead Like me is where it's at)
[x] I have watched the television show Spongebob Squarepants.
[] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I like being the center of attention.
[x] I like eating Ramen noodles.
[x] I like my handwriting.(very much)
[x] I like Shakespeare.
[] I like the taste of blood.(what?)
[x] I like to cook.(love)
[x] I like to sing.(love)
[] I like to vacuum.(what?)
[x] I love learning foreign languages.(would love to)
[] I love Michael Jackson.
[x] I love my friends.
[x] I love olives.(only black)
[x] I love rain.
[x] I love sleeping.(I'm sleeping right now)
[] I love to play computer games.
[x] I love to shop.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I own 100 CDs or more.
[] I own a home.
[] I own and use a library card.
[x] I play a musical instrument.(3 go me)
[] I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
[x] I read books for pleasure.
[x] I shave my legs.
[x] I sleep a lot during the day.
[x] I strongly dislike math.(hate)
[] I think Britney Spears is pretty.([x] I think britney spears is extremely overrated)
[] I think long strings of html code look cool.(what?)
[] I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
[x] I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.(sure I'll go for the candy coated readers digest version)
[] I was born in a country other than the USA.
[x] I watch more TV this year than last year.
[x] I watch soap operas on a regular basis.(not that regular, I know some names)
[x] I wear contact lenses.(for color)
[x] I will try anything once.(twice if I like it)
[] I work at a job that I enjoy.
[] I would classify myself as ghetto.
[1/2] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.(I like those odds a little better)
[x] I like orange kool aid.
[x] I can name all 7 of the dwarfs from 'Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs'.
[x] like being at school.
[] I always love wearing sweaters.(always is an awfully long time)
[] I love water polo.
[] I am currently wearing socks.(I rarely wear socks, I'm a flip flop girl)
[] I am being nostalgic right now.
[] I hate summer.
[x] I am tired.(of?)
[x] I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt (love, love, love)
I have....(interrogate much?)
[x] been drunk.
[] smoked pot.
[] done ecstasy.
[] done coke.
[] done crack.
[] done heroin.
[] done opium.
[] done PCP.
[] done LSD.
[] done CCC's.
[] done prescription narcotics for recreational purposes.
[] huffed air-duster.
[] been to a rave.
[] been to a real party. (at least 30 people and at least 4 types of drugs there)
[x] kissed someone.
[] ridden in a taxi.
[] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[] been dumped.
[x] been used.
[] shoplifted.
[1/2] ran from the cops. (I would if I thought I could get away)
[x] been in a room of your school that you could get suspended for being in
[] been fired.
[] been kicked out of a movie theater.
[x] snuck into a movie.
[] been in a fist fight.
[] got hit by a car.(what?)
[] fired a real gun.
[x] snuck out of your parent's house.
[] been arrested.
[] gone in a mosh pit.
[x] stolen something from your school.
[] celebrated new years in times square.
[] gone on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.(white lied)
[x] had a crush on a teacher.
[] celebrated Mardi-gras in new Orleans.
[] been to Europe.(didn't we already ask this?)
[x] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[x] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[] gone ice skating.
[x] been cheated on.
[] had your tonsils out.
[x] been exposed to laughing gas.
[x] had a car.
[x] driven a car.
[] Totaled a car.
Do you...
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.(sometimes)
[x] have a dog.(wickette)
[x] have your own room.
[x] sing along with your music.
[x] dance around the house in your underwear.(sometimes)
[] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[] listen to underground hip hop.
[] listen to rap.
[x] listen to classic rock.
[x] listen to new rock.
[] listen to country.
[] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to hardcore punk.
[x] listen to pop.
[x] listen to r&b.
[x] listen to jazz.
[] listen to crooners.
[x] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[x] have hobbies.
[] skateboard.
[] do aggressive inline.
[] snowboard.
[] ski.
[1/2] surf.(I want to learn to surf does that count)
[] skim board.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.(unlike some people)
[x] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers
[x] wear boxers(over panties and?)
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like the color red.
[x] like the color green.
[x] like the color black.
[x] like the color purple.
[x] like the color yellow.
[x] like neon colors.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[] have long hair.
[x] have medium hair.
[] have short hair.
[x]have a laptop.
[] have a pager.
Are you...
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[] Hawaiian.
[] blonde(not this week)
[] a brunette.
[x] a redhead.
[] a darkhead.
[] Samoan.
[] Filipino.
[] Korean.
[] British.
[x] white.
[x] Italian (I was adopted by an Italian when I was 8)
[x] Irish.
[] black.
[] Inuit.
[] Mexican.
[] Asian.
[x] a Christian.
[] a Muslim.
[] a Jew.
[] a Hindu.
[] a mormon.
[] a scientologist.
[] an atheist.
[] satanist
[] short.
[x] tall.
[x] just right.
[x] realistic.
[] an emo kid
[] sick
[x] mad
[x] lazy.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[] scared to die.
[] buzzed
[] high
[x] caffeinated
[x] sleepy.
[x] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[] eating something.
[x] ticklish.(extremely)
[x] listening to music (always)

What I like or more importantly what I don't like!

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dresses like a pimp: OFF
dresses like a grandpa: OFF
dresses like a prep: ON (in moderation)
dresses in all black: OFF (a little black in the right places is okay)
dresses like a punk: ON (in moderation)
wears hats: ON
doesn't care what he wears: ON (as long as you can go out in public in it)
has a style all his own: Bigtime ON
sings: super ON
dances: ON
plays a musical instrument: super ON
has an accent: super ON
is shorter than you: depends
is taller than you: ON
has straight teeth: ON
has a mustache: OFF
has a goatee: ON
has a unibrow: OFF
wears braces: Don't matter as long as they're the invisible kind.
has chapped lips: OFF
has green eyes: ON
has blue eyes: ON
has brown eyes: ON
has long hair: Depends
has short hair: ON
has no hair: ON (if you look like Vin Diesel)
drinks alcohol: Doesn't matter
smokes cigarettes: OFF (unless it's only socially)
smokes pot: OFF (drugs of any kind maybe your thing but I'll pass)
wears glasses: Doesn't matter
has blonde hair: ON
has brown hair: ON
has black hair: Depends
has red hair: Depends
is tan: doesn't matter
works out: doesn't matter
smiles more than not: ON
calls you just to say HI: ON
smacks your butt: Um, depends.
compliments you: ON
wears jewelry: Depends (on what you mean by jewelry, like earrings and your standard stuff fine but no huge gold pimp chains)
has bigger feet than you: of course
has smaller feet than you: strange but I'm going to have to say OFF
wears cologne: ON (in moderation)
smiles: ON
wants to get married: ON (someday)
wants to be a dad: ON (someday)
has a long torso: Um ON
is a virgin: Hmm... Doesn't matter.
is "easy": OFF
likes rock: ON
likes pop: depends
likes rap: depends
likes country: depends
likes cartoons: ON
likes movies: ON (if they're kick ass movies)
can make you laugh: super ON
can make you cry: Is it a good cry or a bad one?
likes skittles: sure why not
cooks: super ON
cleans: ON
is clean: Obviously ON

Simple eye doctor, or all knowing, all seeing, eye doctor?

2005-06-28T18:30:00.000-05:00

So I went for my eye check up today and big surprise my eyes are no different I'm still only slightly far sighted. This make me appreciate my excellent sight because my mother is basically blind. She had to get bifocals contacts today. I feel bad for her because she can't see and hasn't been able to since she was a little girl. Apparently I got my father's eyesight so thanks for that.
Anyways I was talking to the doctor and he was like "Ah you've started college since the last time I saw you what classes are you taking?"
I said I'm just trying to get my core out of the way.
He's like "what's your major?"
I'm like,"I dunno it's only my third quarter, I don't have anything set in stone. I know I like art and English."
he's like, "well what do you want to be when you grow up?"
I'm like,"I don't know."
He's like,"well what don't you want to be?"
To which I replied I don't want to be a math teacher because I suck at math.
This is where the conversation starts to sound strangely familiar.
he says,"do you want to work outdoors or indoors?"
I say both.
He says,"do you want to make a lot of money or a little money?"
I say,"a lot...Well enough to live very comfortably."
he pauses for a moment thinking.
"you said you like art and want to work outdoors and indoors and want to make a lot of money, you should consider being an architect."he says smiling.
"wow, doc,"I say,"I only came in for an eye exam and you've mapped out my future."
He laughs and replies,"well your eyes are fine, and you have a bright future, I hope your career works out for you."
I can't help but laugh because of how this convo went. He spends all day examining peoples eyes and saying number one or number two he's constantly giving them options of which is better. I think he's been doing it so long it sneaks in everyday conversation. But still I like to know what my options are and he put them all into perspective today.
Everytime I go to the eye doctor I have to do everything I can to not burst out into laughter. I mean there's a guy with a little light shining it into your eyes, invading your personal space. And I'm giggling inside thinking oh man I should just scream and freak him out. It's so funny the way he looks at your eyes though it's like a moth all in your face like can you see me can you see me. Yes, yes, I can't see you it's hard not to see bright light in your eye held up by a 6 foot something man. He just hovers I don't know how to explain it but if I'm ever in need of a good laugh I know where to go.
I didn't realize until recently that little things like that can make me smile and laugh the entire day. I know I know I'm weird. But I can see great and I have a bright future which is more than I could say a few years ago.

Dedicated to Clif

2005-06-27T21:15:00.000-05:00

I'm almost to 100 people that have visited my site. That makes me smile alittle because I know only about 20 are me :D
Yeah, I'm in a strangely good mood today and I'm guessing it's all the caffeine because it's alittle out of character. Not that I'm down all the time.
On and different note my cousin is currently in the middle east serving the armed forces and his "home away from home" burned to the ground leaving several troops homeless. He said they were all living in an old chicken factory and that they lost everything. Seems it was only a electrical fire thank goodness. So my thoughts and love are out to you cuz. I miss you and pray you return home safely and soon. God knows there's no reason for you to be there and not home with us. Your family is all here for you and we love you so much. Please be Safe Clif.
It's sad because this is a very common story. He has a beautiful wife at home and 3 kids all of which are just kids. His youngest is still a baby and his oldest isn't even a teen. I could say something like why him, why does he have to be over there but that would be completely selfish because there are many so many men and women over there that share the same story. So really my thoughts and prayers are still with them in hopes that they will return as soon as possible.
It's still very surreal I know you hear people say all the time I never thought something like this would happen during my time those words didn't become real for me until someone I'm close got involved. I tried to keep these matters out of my mind and think about anything but, but now it's different now you think was the last time I saw him going to be the last, will I ever hear his laugh again? Did I take our time for granted? Does he know how much we love him? I'm not going to go all political and talk about something everyone else in the world is talking about but I do want to say that this whole thing blows and I wish we could all just get back to our "normal lives." Hasn't this gone on long enough? When will enough be enough?

So I'm updating when I don't have...

2005-06-24T19:47:00.000-05:00

anything to say how pathetic is that? I've been like scanning threw some of these blogs and some peoples are pretty awesome. I know mine is totally... boring. I'm bored looking at it. Well, it does have it's awesome parts (meaning Ryan and Jason) I think I'm really going to start focusing on the sister site because I can speak my mind on it more. This one is exactly like the title says so I guess it's living up to it's name. Check out All Hail the Queen of Self Inflicted Drama on my profile if you want to know how I really feel... XO

For those of you who don't know...

2005-06-23T12:21:00.000-05:00

I just started college. I'm soon to be on my third quarter and I still have no real clue what I want to be 'when I grow up.' I know that I really enjoy English, writing mostly. I think it would be cool to be a journalist but with today's news being what it is, I don't think I would enjoy it. I thought it might be awesome to write for a magazine. I mean I don't think I'll ever get tired of writing I do it constantly. It's like if I go one day without writing something down my health is in jeopardy. I'm addicted to writing. I can think of worse things, I suppose. I also think it would be awesome to be a writer for some T.V. show, or to write screen plays. I don't know I hope I find out soon.
Anyways, I'm also a pretty decent artist. Not to brag or be on the vain side, but I come from a very artistic family so of course I got some of the talent. I've been getting in trouble for drawing all over my school work since I was a kid. I remember I would always finish test early, when I was in elementary school, and I would draw like on everything I could. I also picked up painting in middle school, which is something I don't see going anywhere, but it's something I enjoy. It's a stress release thing. So I was thinking, it would be cool to draw my own cartoon, and write the script for it, and maybe have a role in it. I would be like a triple threat. That would be so cool.
I'm going to open my own animation studio one day I just know it. Yeah, that would be awesome.
Can someone who loves me please win the lottery so I can go to a different college. I clearly need to be in an art college. Maybe I'll get lucky and get a scholarship. Until then I've got nearly 2 more years at the college I'm currently at. Atleast I'm in college I guess. I didn't think I would be a few years ago so I guess it's a start. But one day, one day I tell ya, I am leaving this black hole town forever and never looking back. Never, never. Yeah, I hate it here.
Anyways everyone have a great day, week, weekend, whatever. I feel a writer fever coming on so be prepared for more post than usual. Be good, or be good at whatever it is you're doing. XO

So yeah I'm...

2005-06-23T12:09:00.000-05:00

going to hang out with the two coolest 70+ year olds I know. I just thought it would be nice to tell how my grandparents met since I recently found out. It's shweet.
So they were at this Halloween town get together. Our town wasn't very big during this time I'm imagine. My grandmother was like 15 then and she was there. And my grandpa who is a little older was there. Well Nanny was getting on to a hay ride, you know one of those that's like horse drawn ones that had a buggy thing full of hay. So she climbing up onto it and the horse moves and she falls back, and who catches her? It's my grandpa. This basically starts their relationship. I just think that is the sweetest thing.
They eventually did get married, they have 7 children together and countless grand children. They've been married around 55 years now. They've had their good times and their bad but they stuck together. I personally believe they are more in love now than they were then. I hope I have something like that oneday. I'm not saying they're perfect but who is? Yes, they have their occasional spat but, they're still going strong. And I look up to them for that.

2005-06-20T22:28:00.000-05:00

This reminds me of you just so you know...

BRIGHT EYES LYRICS

"First Day Of My Life"

This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home
Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange
you said everything changed
You felt as if you had just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”
So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Then waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me

My Momma's 50th birthday party...

2005-06-19T18:23:00.000-05:00

So, yeah last night was my mom's big 50th birthday party. We've spent the past two days decorating and making food and it's good that's it's finally over. It was pretty awesome. I spent most of the night talking to my "future parents in law." Yeah, I used to have this huge crush on one of my mothers best friends son.(what teenage girl hasn't?) I mean, I was in love with him when I was a little girl. I've known him all my life. My mom and I always said oneday he and I would get married. He's a little bit older than me. He's my ex adopted step sisters age (that's another story), and we used to take him home when they were in highschool together. I tell you what he's still hott, even though he has long hair now and he's buffed up a bit. I told his mother and father to tell my husband I said hey, and that he should stop by with them next time ;) I know where he works now so I think I might drop in and do the stalker thing. I also know he's single.(go me!) He'll be going to the same college as me coming this fall as well so, ooh la la who knows. Yeah I'm kidding, I could never go out with him I liked him way too much, and he hasn't seen me since I was like in middle school so, that would be way to weird. I mean it would be like finally getting something I've adored for years. I dunno but, I do think he would be impressed with how much I've changed in the past, I don't know, I guess it's been 5 years, atleast. I've grown up so much, and let's face it I look a hell of a lot better if I do say so myself but, then again so does he :P
So the party was pretty sweet for a bunch of people that were older than me and several that were drinking. I did find out my Uncle Mike secretly married his fiance' Anni. Which came as a big shock, not only to me but, several family members that were there. I'm delighted cause Anni is awesome. She's from China, and she moved to California several years ago. Then she moved to Georgia about 2 or 3 years ago and they've been dating ever since. She's the greatest. She didn't speak any english when she got here and now she speaks better english than a lot of people I know. So Anni I would just like to say Welcome to our family!!! I'm glad to be able to finally call you my Aunt :)
Pictures from the party will be up soon. Well, that's all for now stay tuned to the sister site for less happy go lucky news.
See ya soon!!! XO

Not a totally random question...

2005-06-17T01:39:00.000-05:00

When we hang up do you instantly wish we were still talking? Just Curious. . .
Have a great weekend. Be safe. XO

Feeling much much better :)

2005-06-16T23:00:00.000-05:00

Yeah, so, I'm feeling on the better side of bad. The cold's not so bad after much medication and laying around doing nothing. :)
The weather today was perfect it was 90 and sunny and beautiful. I finally got my a$$ out of the house. It was wonderful. I was tempted to just drive all day but, then I realized I really didn't have anywhere to go.
So, just some random things of the day...
1. If you haven't seen the movie Garden State, you should most definitely watch it. It's the best movie I've seen in a long time.
2. If you haven't checked out the Tonight Not Again Jason Mraz Live album, you should before his new album, Mr. A-Z, comes out. This guy is the most original sounding guy ever. He's awesome. He's currently my favorite singer out there.
3. The Phantom in the Phantom of the Opera really got the shitty end of the deal. Love the movie, hate Christine and Raoul. Yeah, they were childhood sweet hearts but come on, The Phantom wrote Christine an opera and made her a star. The Phantom is my pick any day.
4. You suck the mostest. Booyah.
5. I hope you're watching AdultSwim. You don't need a reason just watch it.
6. Amy Brown is awesome.
7. InuYasha is awesome.
8. My current favorite bands/singers are The Killers, Gavin Degraw, Jason Mraz, Keane, Maroon 5, and the always talented Linkin Park.
9. The Last Unicorn is my all time favorite animated movie.
10. My favorite younger generation of actors include Heath Ledger, Orlando Bloom, and Shane West. There are more and I realize two of them have accents.
11. I love accents. Love, Love, Love!!!
12. I love to laugh. :P That doesn't mean it's easy to make me laugh.
13. You really, really need to stop sucking so bad.
14. I have a dog named Wickette and a cat named Shippo.
15. I want to be on a soap opera oneday.
This concludes our random things of the day. Tune in tomorrow when I'll try to bore you guys some more. See ya soon. XO!!!
P.S. You still suck more than I do. ;)

2005-06-16T02:11:00.000-05:00

I don't mean to pimp my mom but, Craig, if you're out there my mom stays up late just to watch you. She thinks you're the greatest.

Posted by Hello

HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL MOMMA!!!

2005-06-16T01:55:00.000-05:00

I don't know if you thought you would make it to 50 when you were my age but you have. You look 10 times better than any 50 year old that I know. So, while we're on the subject this is for the MEN out there. My mom is like the hottest mom ever and even better than that she's also single. That's right she's currently SINGLE. So GENTLEMEN, if there are any left out there, and you're looking for a LOVELY SOUTHERN LADY, I have the one for you. If you're anything like Craig Ferguson even better. She loves a guy that can make her laugh. So please men if anyone's listening don't miss this amazing opportunity she won't be SINGLE long.

The more I talk to you...

2005-06-16T01:09:00.000-05:00

the more I love you. Don't let it go to your head. I'm just saying you're not so bad. (Currently, so watch it mister :P). I'm sorry I'm so guarded but, I love you the best way I know how. One day I'll be different and when I am, you're the first person I'll think of. Until then, know I love you as much as I can. Thanks for sticking with me for so long. I hope this will end up in your favor. You really are the best friend I've always needed, and if anyone can break down my walls, my bets are on you. Give me time, and we'll see.(I know you've given me so much time already and I thank you for that.) I don't mean to be mushy that's usually your area but I'm glad I met you. (Even if you are an ass who can't say shweet for swhit.) Don't get your hopes up I'm just saying you maybe growing on me. This much... See ya soon. XO

2005-06-16T00:23:00.000-05:00

And the Cutest one of all Number 1.

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2005-06-16T00:22:00.000-05:00

Number 2 Awwe how shweet.

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2005-06-16T00:21:00.000-05:00

Number 3 Blue Heeler.

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2005-06-16T00:20:00.000-05:00

Number 4 the foxy Shiba Inu.

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2005-06-15T23:18:00.000-05:00

Come on, you know you want me...

Posted by Hello

2005-06-15T22:56:00.000-05:00

Why listen to Jason Mraz? Why not?

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I got nothing...

2005-06-15T21:34:00.000-05:00

Yeah so I have a cold. Full blown cold. I hate the sound of my voice at the moment. There's nothing going on. Nothing interesting happened today but such is life when you live in a small town. No one's listening or hanging on for my next post anyways so I guess it really doesn't matter. I just didn't want to get out of the habit of updating. So, have a good one. See ya soon. XO!!!

2005-06-14T18:36:00.001-05:00

Is comic relief so bad?

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2005-06-14T18:36:00.000-05:00

I think not :P

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Blah Blah are any of these really important enough to have a title?

2005-06-14T17:42:00.000-05:00

No, no, I think not. I just wanted to introduce my sister site it's on the profile. Yes, I am addicted. I don't know how it happened but I'll admit I have a problem. It's not totally time consuming at this point but I like to write so much that I think it could be.
Sew, yeah I have another freaking blog. I do warn you though in posts to come it may not be the nicest. And if you're related to me, you might want to steer clear. Don't get me wrong I love most of my family but some of you are stuck up f**kards and I can't believe I'm related to you. :P see ya soon.

I apologize, when I'm wrong, I'm wrong.

2005-06-13T23:08:00.000-05:00

So, yeah what I said about my father in my last post wasn't right. I don't want my father dead. I just wish he would grow up. I mean he's already helped ruin 2 of his children's lives. Well, I wouldn't say my life is "ruined" but it's definitely not the most ideal. He has another daughter (not by my mom, I'm technically an only child. I have a half brother, Michael, that'll be 35 in July. A half sister, Shelby, who would have been 14, had she not passed away. And my youngest half sister Emily who is 10. My father is 50, just to give you a little more background.) his other daughter is still a kid and she's going through the exact same thing I did at her age. I hate it. I don't want her to have trust issues like I have. Sigh... I hate it for her, so much. She doesn't deserve to have to feel how I felt. I guess I get all crazy and down about it around this time of year, what with father's day and all.
I understand my father never really had much of a childhood but he's had the past 35 years it's time to take responsibility for everything and move on. I truly hope my father my brother my sister and I can have some kind of relationship before it's too late. My father's not in the best condition (he was a major drug addict as I've said, he's paying for it now) I just pray it's not too late for him. I don't want to hate my father the rest of my life. If he doesn't change I really need to find a way to let it go. I don't want to take this anger to my grave but I don't know how to forgive him. He doesn't deserve to die alone but does he deserve my forgiveness. If he'd only ask it of me I know I would give it to him. I'm not one to hold grudges but this is a lifetime of hurt I deal with on a daily basis. How does someone get past the past?